Today i went out with some friends, just to drink a cup of coffee, have a little chitchat and pretend we love each other... i mean, we did loved each other once...
There was a time when we were friends and we could count on each other, but now it seems a social obligation, or something like that.
But i'm not heartless! It seems i'm not interesting anymore... or that or i'm the one not interested! I have my friends of university and all, and my everyday is quite enjoyable, but this few people that i used to love more than my own family, sometimes, now they are strangers.
And for ages, that was hurting me. Feeling that i was loosing such important people in my life, because of "time". That little thing that can easily be resolved if we really want to.
But today i realised something... Is not hurting anymore.
It doesn't make me wanna cry anymore.
Now they are "just friends", but even so, we still do the cortesy of hanging out, one time in a month... or two, really. And that's still sweet, because even if it is a big lie, from time to time i feel like i'm in high school again, when my only problems were to think: "Do you think that he realised already, that i'm in love with him?!".